MAKE THE TIME TO UNDERSTAND PEOPLE.

When you meet somebody new, whether a friend or a potential love interest, it’s best to make the time to get know them very best that you can. This is will definitely be beneficial to you because you’ll know when and how to communicate with them. You
won’t come off in negative light and will give them an opening to be able to do the same with you. Forcing your way or behaviors on somebody is never the way to go. I’ve definitely learned that the hard way and is no longer something I do or even want done to me.

ACTUAL HAPPENINGS.

Woke up. Went to work. Went to lunch with my coworker. Kept busy workin’ on stuff that came in. The usual. Went home and picked up my leftover Chinese food. Went to a friend’s house to watch the Heat game with her Dad. Had a great time doing so and we won. Wrapping up this entry and I’m hitting the sack. G’night!

Signing off,
Hank Justice

UNFRIENDING SOMEBODY ON FACEBOOK WITHOUT TELLING THEM WHY IS THE ULTIMATE OFFENSE.

They go apeshit when they realize you did it and tell you things they supposedly held in for months. You really do see their true colors. It’s both funny and sad. I unfriend those that troll my statuses and hate on me on my page constantly. It’s plain and simple. It’s my page. I can do whatever the fuck I want. Get over it and grow up. Don’t try to contact me any way else you know how and attempt to insult me for doing so.

SHOPPING ISN’T FOR EVERYONE.

I think I’ve hated it ever since my father used to drag me to store after store in my early teens. I don’t like being in a store or dealing with a bunch of people walking around and getting in my way all the time. When I do have to buy something in a store, I research it online so that I know exactly what I need to get when I get to the store. I walk into the store, get what I need and head straight to the register to pay for it. I’m 31 and would only go shopping with somebody that I’m shacking up with at the end of the night (I’d endure the torture for that) or with friends that I can totally goof off with. Anyone else who drags me along better have something for me or I’m out.

ACTUAL HAPPENINGS.
Was rudely awakened by a hater. Went to McDonald’s for breakfast. Went home and went back to sleep. Woke up several times and kept falling back asleep. Was called and lured to join a friend shopping with food. Walked away and got a haircut at the place next door. Came back to the store and found three cool t-shirts. Was subject to more shopping torture. Went for bad Chinese food after the shopping torture. Went back to my friend’s house to help her unload all the crap and came home to finish up my entry. Night, ya’ll.

Signing off,
Hank Justice

WHEN ALL ELSE FAILS, GO HOME AND GO TO SLEEP.

I was having one of those days where I started to think that everything in my life sucks and that the world sucks. I felt it starting to grab onto me when the day began. Then again, I’ve been feeling this crawling up on me throughout the week. I was drowning it out with positivity, but I just couldn’t fight anymore today. I took that gaze into myself that scares the shit out of me. It’s the gaze that tells me that my life is a complete waste of time and that nothing I do is gonna come out right or that I’m never gonna meet the people that I’m supposed to be with. It’s Friday, a day when most people are cheerful. To me, it’s just another day. It stopped meaning something to me when my marriage ended. I used to get excited about having plans and whatnot, but I think the times have changed so much that plans are just a go-with-the-flow thing. I was feeling extremely sluggish and negative at the end of the workday, so I decided to pack up at the end and just head straight home. I was no in mood to speak to or see anyone. I got home and just threw myself on my bed and passed out. I woke up an hour later because my phone went off, but a lot of that negativity had gone away. Sleep really does help with many things. Do it as often as you can!

LEARN HOW TO BE COMFORTABLE WITH YOUR PHYSICAL APPEARANCE.

I’ve gained plenty of weight since my marriage ended. It’s starting to piss me off when I look in the mirror. I also think my chances of ever attracting someone that I’m attracted to are fading away as I gain more weight. But you know what? I have the power to change that. Or not. In either case, I need to be cool with what I look like. I’m letting it keep me away from social activities and from feeling good about myself. I feel like people see me and just can’t take me seriously. I also feel that it’s the reason I’m passed up for many things. I’m gonna have to suck it up and learn to love me no matter what. If I don’t, it’s going to destroy me. I don’t be destroyed by anything. I WON’T!

KEEP THE FAITH.

If you don’t do this, you’ll surely perish.

ACTUAL HAPPENINGS.

Woke up. Went to work. Did some work. Went to grab some empanadas at Patagonia in Doral. Did some more work. Felt sluggish. Left work and went to pick up meds. Came home. Passed out. Woke up and watched the Miami Heat win 17 in a row. And now I’m finishing up my entry here on my laptop at home. I’m staying in. Got no real reason to be out. G’night, folks.

Signing off,
Hank Justice

CHOICES. WE HAVE THEM.

It is far better to know you have them and which ones you do than to not know at all. One issue with having too many choice is not being able to make the right one for you. This is why you must always try to think things through when you can. Life isn’t perfect and may sometimes interrupt the flow of your making choices, so brace yourself to able to deal with making a poor one once in a while. Always keep in mind that your choices dictate your life. Trying to make choices that ultimately make you happy is the way to go. I have made choices that have not contributed to my happiness for far too long and really need to switch my focus to making better choices. The choice to start writing again is definitely one that is guiding me toward peace and happiness. One choice I should really make is to stop wasting my time envying those who are happy and successful and just go and do it myself. I’m probably going to have to really kick myself hard repeatedly to get into focus, but I hope to get there someday.

SOMETIMES THINGS JUST HAVE TO BE SAID.

Many times things go unsaid and unwanted behaviors happen time and time again. Don’t feel like a bad person for having to say whatever it is that you have to say. Say it without hostility and it may just work out fine. You can’t control the other person’s behavior, but you sure as hell can control your own.

HOBBIES KEEP PEOPLE SANE.

How do you deal with loneliness as a result people not talking to you? Immerse yourself in hobbies and work. You’ll be so busy you won’t even have time to give a shit and people will then notice and remember you. It seems like this is the law of the universe. Preoccupy and ignore and you’ll be just fine.

LEARN INDEPENDENCE FROM A YOUNG AGE.

If you do not, you will be royally screwed when you get older. I’m living proof of this. I always had everything done for me. There things that I still need to learn how to do for myself. Cooking is definitely one of those things. I gotta get on that ASAP. Relying on others for anything sucks. I love being able to do things on my own. It feels amazing. Anyone who disagrees with that is wrong.

ACTUAL HAPPENINGS.
Woke up. Went to work. Did some work. Went to Subway for a light lunch. Came back and did some work. Got invited to have dinner with two very special people at the Airport Dinner. Got dragged to The Home Depot. Went to Barnes and Noble. Got dragged to Walmart where I am finishing this entry. Night!

Signing off,
Hank Justice

HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN THE ITCH TO JUST GET UP AND MOVE SOMEWHERE NEW?

I totally got it today out of all days. I was at work and I was like, “I’m 31 years old. I have no reason to stay in Miami. No relationship, no close connection to my family, no solid friendships, no business, nothing. What the hell am I still doing here??” I won’t lie. This question has definitely surfaced throughout the last year or so, but I’ve managed to silence it with meaningless shit. I think I’m done trying to silence it. I have to get serious and start making moves in the right direction. I have to start trying to find out what it is that I’m supposed to be doing professionally and personally. No more running. No more hiding. If this entails me leaving where I was born and raised, then so be it. I don’t want to sink into another depression and lose myself again.

I HAVE MORE TO SAY TO THE PEOPLE THAT CLEAN OUR OFFICES THAN TO THOSE WORK IN THEM (WITH THE EXCEPTION OF ONE PERSON OUT OF 120 OR SO).

Look, I know that I tend to contradict myself at times, but I’ve never been a big fan of a corporate culture where everybody is conditioned to pretty much stick to themselves for the most part. Even within my own department there is a huge lack of social interaction. I only interact with one coworker on a regular basis in my department (at least there’s that), but I barely see or speak to anyone else. It gets lonely. Luckily. there’s social media to keep me company.

ACTUAL HAPPENINGS.
Went to work. Went to El Arepazo 2 for lunch in Doral thinking there were “Chavez” related discounts (there weren’t, but the owner was nice enough to hook me up with a discount). Did my work. Went to see my “Strategist.” Went too 100 Montaditos for dinner. Went to Barnes & Noble. Found out from a friend that I got paid for doing some light website maintenance over the weekend (this definitely put a smile on my face) and went to pick up the check. And now I’m home finishing this entry. Good night, y’all.

Signing off,
Hank Justice

HOW MANY OF US ARE REALLY READY FOR A LIFE OF EXCESS WEALTH AND FAME?

If you woke up the next morning and you were a celebrity with a shitload of money, how would you feel? I know I would probably have like 30 different reactions upon realizing the news. It’s something that is everyone’s fantasy but that not everyone is necessarily equipped to handle. What would you do if you never head to worry about making money again? Would you travel? Would you not? Would you blow the money all in one shot? Ahh, just having to think about all that shit gives me a headache. And don’t even get me started on fighting off the envious and the gold diggers. You’re almost, no in fact, you are, gonna need full-time staff to keep things under control. Money and fame often destroy people. I vow from now to never let it take me down if I were to in excess possession of either. I would make the time do the things that I always wanted to do but never had the money to and take my time to do them. Money won’t be an issue, so I’m gonna have to plan my time out accordingly. I may even need a team of people to help me out with this. I would not mind having that at all. They would be compensated very well, and I would definitely love for them to form a bond with me.

HAVE YOU EVER STOOD STILL FOR A SECOND AND ASKED YOURSELF, “HOW THE HELL DID I GET HERE?”

Today is one day that I’m doing that. A year ago, I was in a rush to move out and find a new place of my own. Now, a year later, I have my place and my sanity. So glad I was able to overcome the hardships I was going through at the time and live in the world alone. But once in a while, you can’t help but step outside of yourself and do this. It’s only normal. But you know what? Ask it, but don’t even bother answering the question because all you need to do is be grateful that you’re alive and that you have what you have, you know?

ACTUAL HAPPENINGS.
Went to work. Did some work. Went to lunch at Chick-Fil-A. Got back and did some more work. Hugo Chavez died, and as soon as I found out, which was near 5:00 PM, I let my coworkers know so that we can call get the hell out of there and avoid the traffic that was going to ensue in Doral as a result of his being dead. Went to Wood Tavern for free tacos. Went to Lime Fresh in Midtown for free Queso. Came here to Barnes and Noble as usual and now I’m finishing my entry here. Peace!

Signing off,
Hank Justice

PORTION CONTROL IS REALLY EASIER THAN YOU THINK.

Many of us (especially from Hispanic families) are conditioned by our parents to eat every last bit of the meal that they provide you with. This is why so many of us end up overweight. I can definitely say this was the case for me. I continued eating that way all the way up until now. I’m now realizing that you don’t have to eat the food you buy all at once. You can eat some then and then eat some later. It actually works out better because you have a little something to snack on later on, you know?

FALLING ASLEEP AT WORK REALLY SUCKS.

It was so bad for me today that I was almost blacking out and landing on my keyboard. I struggled like hell to keep my eyes open. No amount of music or noise was gonna help me get through that mess. Yet somehow I made it through it. I don’t know if it was talking to people that helped me wake the fuck up or what, but wow I really needed the shake. It was so cold and all I wanted to do was crawl underneath my desk and take a nap. The problem with me doing that is that I’m gonna get caught because I snore too loud and too much. Plus, one should not sleep at work. One should sleep at home. I think my cycle was fucked because I fell asleep so late before. I have to get to bed earlier tonight so that this shit doesn’t happen to me again tomorrow.

ACTUAL HAPPENINGS.
Went to work. Took care of business over there.Went to Moe’s Southwestern Grill for Moe Mondays and got myself a Homewrecker Burrito and chips for only $5. Went back to work. Struggled with sleep even after my cafecito but eventually pushed on through until about 7:00 PM. Watched the Miami Heat win for the 15th time in a row and break their own record for most consecutive wins. Now I’m home wrapping up this entry.

Signing off,
Hank Justice

COLD WEATHER IS AMAZING.

I live in Miami. It’s pretty much never cold here, so when it is, I highly recommend going out and enjoying it any way you can. I actually didn’t do that today, but still. It’s something I think that should be pointed out. Cold weather makes me wanna stay indoors and go to sleep, which I did. The funny thing is that it’s always cold in my room anyway, so it really makes no difference to me. I’m not really one to be outside much. At least it being cold outside sorta makes me wanna be outside. I definitely need to change my indoor addiction up. It’s part of my laziness. I’m workin’ on it. 2013 will be the year that I learn how to get in touch with mother nature again.

TRUST ONLY THOSE WHO GIVE YOU A REASON TO TRUST THEM.

The world can be an ugly place when people do bad things to other people. If you meet somebody and something about them seems shady or off, just stop talking to that person. This especially applies to online dating. A lot of women and even some men are taken advantage of by people that are just genuinely bad, so this makes for a skeptical person. Proceed with caution and take nothing personal. That’s the best advice I can give to anyone trying the online dating thing. A lot of these women are very slow to respond if they even respond to you at all because somebody has hurt them or too many creeps come on to them at once. Guys who don’t know how to talk to and treat women have no business speaking to them at all. They should exist in their own creepy planet where they date blow-up dolls and mannequins.

ACTUAL HAPPENINGS.
Slept until 1:00 PM when the Miami Heat game began. Left the house 25 minutes later to go to a friend’s house to watch the game. Went to BK to grab lunch. Came back and finished watching the game. Went home after the game to sleep for a few hours. Went to Taco Bell for dinner. Picked up a friend and headed to another friend’s house to watch The Walking Dead. Went home after that and now here I am finishing out the night.

Signing off,
Hank Justice